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Dawn to Dusk in the Embrace of Love

15 Jun

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June 15, 2020   –   Monday

Day 1,646

 

The sun rose at 7:32 and cast its golden glow on the mountain. Half an hour later a thump on the roof woke me from a light sleep and I rose and opened the curtains to the bedroom to look out at the grove and the steps that lead to the forecourt and the drive. The sun glinted through tree branches beyond the garden and silhouetted the shapes of birds flitting through the forest canopy. The steps were wet with dew and a few chaffinches were hopping around checking the area for seed. I couldn’t see what had made the thump and went in to open the curtains in the sitting room.

Another day dawning. Another beautiful, sweet, golden morning, serene and windless, ripe with promise. I turned on the electric heater and was about to prepare Valerie’s tea when I decided to check the steps again. Sure enough, there was Mr. Lonely, a California quail that has been living here on this property since before we arrived some four-and-a-half years ago. Of all the dozens of quail that have visited our land during this year’s long hot summer, only he is left. The rest have packed it in and headed down to the tangled swathe of gorse and blackberry that borders the community vegetable garden half a kilometre down the valley.

I put on my thick terry cloth robe and slippers and went outside to scatter a couple of handfuls of seed into the grove, and, because he was so patient and unafraid, right on the pavers at Mr. Lonely’s feet. He tucked in right away and as I turned to go back inside I could hear the chaffinches and green finches and sparrows flying down from the trees surrounding the house. Breakfast for the birds at the dawn of the world. That’s what it felt like and it’s the same every day. Cold, tranquil, sun dappled and perfect. I smiled and went back inside.

Valerie woke and stretched and murmured good morning sweetly and we had breakfast in bed, warm beneath the covers, watching avian antics as the birds rattled through the seed and the sun rose until it shone directly in the bedroom window. For the umpteenth time I reminded myself to clean the windows as they are hard to see through when the sun blazes through them. It’s like driving up the 309 Road into the setting sun and struggling to see out the streaked and crazed windshield of the car. I add it to the list.

The walkway, version three, is the priority and that is what I end up focusing on for the rest of the day. Guests are coming in four days to celebrate our victory over the virus and I’d like to have it finished before then. I have to stop twice. Once to swap out gas bottles for the kitchen stove and once for lunch. The birds in the grove kept me company and row by row I slowly lay pavers and bricks in a gently curving path from the end of the raised walkway next to the storage room shipping container toward the new steps up to the deck of the forest porch. Time flies and as the sun sets behind the northwest ridge and the light begins to fade I pack up my tools and take stock of my progress. Halfway done and tomorrow when I go into town to replace the gas bottle I’ll have to pick up three more bags of bedding sand and thirty more bricks. I’ll use the trip to take four bags of trash down now that the refuse transfer station is back to running normally. Down and back in two hours if all goes well. And it will.

Night folds its arms around the forest and the stars come out clear and bright. It’s going to be a cold night. Two Moreporks begin calling in the trees down toward the river. I answer, saying hello and goodnight, and wish them good hunting. The moon is waning and won’t be up until late this night. Before sleep takes me I will give thanks for all that this day has given me. Miracles and light, love and laughter. It’s all you need and it’s all right here in the forest. I could not be in a better place.

 

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The Future Waits

15 May

ADiaryofaPandemicMaster

May 15,  2020

Day 55

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1 New case. 10 Recovered cases. Ratio of recovered cases to active cases is 94.8%.

Thames was a no go. Valerie was not up to it and I discovered a bureaucratic glitch in the matrix so we postponed and had a quiet, relaxing day tucked in at home. I completed the repairs on the lamp and returned it to its place in the sitting room. Checked it off the list and made new plans for tomorrow (today:). All is well.

 

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It will Fluctuate

26 Apr

ADiaryofaPandemicMaster

April 26, 2020

Day 34

 

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During the previous month members of our tight-knit community have taken it upon themselves to do the easement road maintenance while the workers normally contracted for this job are locked down. Grass is weed-whacked and gorse rooted out. Cracks in the road have been marked for future attention and safety barriers are in the process of being water blasted and re-painted. One project undertaken by the Mahakirau Forest Estate Society Incorporated (MFESI) is the construction of a research ‘hub’ near the picnic area that will serve to house visiting biologists and guest workers. This week individual volunteers, working from an online schedule so that only one person is on site at a time, began staking out and clearing the land for this facility. Life goes on and despite us all being constrained by the challenges of this contagion, our work continues.

Today I started dismantling an old, out of disused outhouse that was knocked over by a falling tree a few years back. I’m using the thin plywood from the walls to make small storage boxes that will sit on the new shelves in the workshop shipping container. Internal framing is coming from scrap wood, fasteners are being culled from a box of screws collected over time from various other building modifications. I throw very little away and am glad I have this habit because all of the hardware stores are closed. Like the whelk, I must live in my home while I build it. The storage boxes will replace the hodgepodge of cardboard ones that contain all of the things that won’t yet fit into our small (but growing) house. I will build one a week while working on other projects higher on the priority list, but eventually they’ll all be done and I can cross them off and move on down the line.

With one piece of outhouse wall to work with, I set up a temporary workbench on the deck of the forest porch and hummed Joni Mitchell’s Chelsea Morning as the sun poured in like butterscotch. The days are getting shorter and colder, but there are still a few warm and pleasant hours on either side of noon. The swallows are active in this interlude, their scratchy chirps filling the sky as they swoop and wheel around the clearing below the house. A few quail come to the steps and call and are fed by their humans. After their meal they sit in the warm sun in the grass at the edge of the grove and dream of summer. Chaffinches have returned from wherever it is they go during the summer and the moreporks are calling earlier in the afternoon. In this tail end of Indian Summer two of the rose bushes are putting out buds and the climbing rata are blooming in orange brush strokes all over the valley.

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For a few minutes, Valerie walked in the garden, breathing in the outside air for the first time in three weeks. A smile wreathed her face as she contemplated what must be done to return the place to order. For now that is all she can do, but it is enough.

Other jobs done included two loads of laundry in the newly painted ‘laundry room’. I figured out how to clean the antique Chinese white ceramic lamp whose close spaced decorative lattices have been collecting dust for years. Counting the holes in four square inches and multiplying by the total surface area told me that there are over a thousand tiny, irregularly shaped triangles to clean. I put the lamp base in a bucket of soapy water collected from the outflow of the washing machine where I will let it soak for a few days. Should take about a week to finish that tedious task by doing a little bit here, a little there, in between other endeavours.

Fading light and lowering temperatures told me to stop and wrap up. Shut down, tools down…lockdown. I walked to the verandah and scanned the sky above the ridge to the northwest. It took me a while, but I found the thin sliver of the new moon hiding in plain sight, chasing the sun. So beautiful. So absolutely, amazingly beautiful. I linger there for a time and marvel, then go inside to check the numbers.

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When asked by a brash young reporter what he thought the stock market would do that week, financier James Pierpont Morgan famously replied, “It will fluctuate”. I think that holds true for pandemics as well.

9 New cases, up from the day before. 24 Recovered cases. Ratio of recovered cases to active cases is 77%. Two Zeroes on the board today but again they are just place holders. 328 people are still infected.

Thus far I am not aware of anyone of note in New Zealand weighing in on the question of  whether previously infected people develop immunity or not. Can you catch Covid-19 again and again? Other questions are percolating to the surface as time goes on. Massive strokes are being reported in young patients currently hospitalised with active infections and a great deal of the at home deaths in New York City during the past month were from strokes. I will wait for further developments as April draws to a close and reflect on how fortunate I am to have been to be able to self-isolate in such a wonderful, peaceful spot.

 

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Abide with Me

25 Apr


April 25, 2020

Day 33

Today is Anzac Day in New Zealand and Australia. Normally there are ceremonies held at dawn at war memorials, cemeteries and Maori maraes all across the country to commemorate all New Zealanders who served and died in all wars and conflicts and the contribution of all who have served. Because it encompasses members of all races and creeds and unites everyone in remembrance of those that gave their all for the nation, there is no more important day in the year. 

This Anzac Day was unlike any other that has ever been celebrated because people everywhere, though in full lockdown, standing in their driveways or gardens or apart but together in public places, still found ways to honour and remember their countrymen, family and friends. In so doing, they showed why this nation is special. When adversity challenges them they rally as one to steadfastly, quietly and resolutely do what must be done.  There is no greater testament to this country and her people than the way they celebrate Anzac Day.

Here is proof. If you take the time to read and watch all of the different articles and features contained in this link, you will begin to see what I have. Truly and sincerely a moving tribute to a people and a country. Enjoy.

https://www.stuff.co.nz/national/121260057/live-kiwis-commemorate-extraordinary-anzac-day-in-covid19-lockdown

And though it all, the numbers must be counted.

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5 New cases. 23 Recovered cases. Ratio of recovered cases to active cases is 76%. (Nothing in the Zero department.) Another day, another death. Bless them and bless us. It could be much worse.



Usually toward the end of April the skies turn gray and cold and Anzac Day often has a somber feel to it. Today was different. A brilliant red dawn and later, a bright and beautiful day greeted those who rose early to stand and remember.

Tradition at services on Anzac Day calls for the singing of Abide with Me. The hymn is a prayer for God to remain present with the speaker throughout life, through trials, and through death. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=szjYUaF3nro&feature=youtu.be&fbclid=IwAR1RGI21RD_vIZr4PvW-e9vq4FDuqASxUvb1X5xG-DoSGFcvXMbj6zoHmfg

Abide with me; fast falls the eventide;
The darkness deepens; Lord with me abide.
When other helpers fail and comforts flee,
Help of the helpless, O abide with me.

Swift to its close ebbs out life’s little day;
Earth’s joys grow dim; its glories pass away;
Change and decay in all around I see;
O Thou who changest not, abide with me.

Not a brief glance I beg, a passing word,
But as Thou dwell’st with Thy disciples, Lord,
Familiar, condescending, patient, free.
Come not to sojourn, but abide with me.

Come not in terror, as the King of kings,
But kind and good, with healing in Thy wings;
Tears for all woes, a heart for every plea.
Come, Friend of sinners, thus abide with me.

Thou on my head in early youth didst smile,
And though rebellious and perverse meanwhile,
Thou hast not left me, oft as I left Thee.
On to the close, O Lord, abide with me.

I need Thy presence every passing hour.
What but Thy grace can foil the tempter’s power?
Who, like Thyself, my guide and stay can be?
Through cloud and sunshine, Lord, abide with me.

I fear no foe, with Thee at hand to bless;
Ills have no weight, and tears no bitterness.
Where is death’s sting? Where, grave, thy victory?
I triumph still, if Thou abide with me.

Hold Thou Thy cross before my closing eyes;
Shine through the gloom and point me to the skies.
Heaven’s morning breaks, and earth’s vain shadows flee;
In life, in death, O Lord, abide with me.

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God of All Things

23 Jul

100 words for Friday Fictioneers a group of writers from around the world who meet at a virtual restaurant every week and choose one story from column A and two from column B. The head cook and bottle washer is Rochelle Wisoff-Fields and the stories are inspired by the photo prompt below from Marie Gail Stratford.

My story is a requiem for two goats, dear friends of a dear friend, mauled to death by a pack of wild dogs on a recent moonlit night. The link to the picture is obscure, but has its roots in the Japanese superstition about not placing chopsticks upright in a bowl of rice.

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No luck today in my search.

In a shaded grove of tangled bamboo, iridescent Tui’s fill the air with mournful song. A shaft of sunlight bathes a low mound.

Khalil Gibran said, “Love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation”.

I don’t blame the dogs. They are man’s best friend in daytime, but at night and in a pack they answer only to the moon.

I do blame the owners and pray we never meet.

In fresh turned earth I stand two lighted joss sticks, one for Brad, now at peace, and one for Calvin, still missing.

 

 

 

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In this Life

21 May

100 words for the rest of my life.

Based on love, prompted by the photo below from Erin Leary, as a weekly submission for Friday Fictioneers. We are like birds hidden in the tree branches, singing to each other, singing to ourselves….singing because we must. Rochelle Wisoff-Fields keeps poachers at bay and waters the lawn, but doesn’t get paid enough.

Thanks, friend. It’s a peaceful place. Come and sing with us.

 

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He wrote to say he would arrive at the beginning of summer. She named the time and place.

He had been moving in her orbit all of his lives. She had been waiting for years.

Between the great tree where her children played many years ago and the old basalt steps that led down into the park, she let the walls of her reserve fall, then stepped over them into his arms.

He held her and let the light of a new world illuminate him. The fog was lifting, warmed by the heat of memories. She relaxed into his love.

 

 

In this Life

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The Impressionists

26 Dec

A 100 word story based on the photo below taken by some-damn-body from a penthouse on the Rue de Passy with a bargain basement digital camera and a pair of binoculars. My thanks to Rochelle Wisoff-Fields for using it and to all the structural iron painters in Friday Fictioneers for adding their layers of paint to the edifice.

While visiting Paris in 2007 I climbed part way up the tower and saw firsthand a team of two painters out on the iron going about their work. From that memory and others comes this week’s story.

The ImpressionistsCopyright Douglas MacIlroy

“You’re getting sloppy, Gustave. Her again?”

“I’m sorry, Rene, yes.”

“She’s on your mind often?”

“Only when I’m breathing.”

“Have you told her you love her?”

“Every day that I can.”

“You’ve missed a spot. Hand me that brush. What is she waiting for?”

“It’s complicated.”

“If the inspectors ever see your work, it will be.”

Gustave adjusted his safety lanyard and swung to a beam that faced her apartment. Seventy-six bright red hearts with her initials in white already adorned the tower.

“You think she’ll ever see?” asked Rene.

“One day,” replied Gustave as he finished. “One day,”

Seventy-seven.

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Nocturne

23 Oct

100 words for Friday Fictioneers, an orchestra composed of guest writers from various symphonies around the world who each week use a photo for inspiration in a flash fiction composition. This weeks prompt was provided by the lady on the podium, baton at the ready, Rochelle Wisoff-Fields, who has recently completed her first year in the conductor’s position. (Congratulations, Maestro.)

 

Out of loss and loneliness, ecstatic transportation and catharsis. The heart yearns and fingers fly across the keys. Nightsong.

 

 

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He played though there was no one to listen.

Con dolore, because she was gone.

With abandon because that is what he felt during their short time together.

Con amore, because he loved her still.

He played so hard that he’d gone through three keyboards since her heart began a duet with another.

His best music, played to the night, unheard by her.

He played Edward the Mad Shirt Grinder because he could get lost in Nicky Hopkins’ wondrous melody as he imagined her dancing free under the stars.

He loved her still.

He played because he was so alone.

 

 

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Edward the Mad Shirt Grinder

(not recommended for those that won’t like it)

The Wolf

8 Jun

Dear Friends on the Friday Fictioneers bus,

Here is a guest post by Ian Partlow,  a wonderful boy who is having his ninth birthday soon. He sees the world with the eyes of a child. While this comes naturally to him, it is a perspective that many writers would love to have restored to them, if only for a little while. Unfettered by the chains of time and with his Wolf by his side, Ian has the greatest gift of all — Imagination.

Happy Birthday, Ian!

Not inspired by the photo prompt from El Appleby just below…..

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but issuing forth from the same magical world of mythical beasts and a young boy’s heart, here is….

THE WOLF
I have a glassy white wolf
Who is made of silky white fur
I have a wolf who brings the moon to the sun
Who howls at the day of the night
I have a wolf
Who can make the sound of wind
Who lives in the light of the moon
I have a wolf
As big as the sea
Who takes me to the other moon
I have a wolf
Who is not to be seen
Who can protect the wind from the sea
I have a wolf
Who floats to the end of life
Who can protect me from anything
by Ian Partlow

Ian and his muse

Ian's Wolf

Sisters

16 Nov

Here is my 100 word story for Friday Fictioneers, a group of electrifying individuals who write flash fiction stories based on a photo prompt (provided this week by Sean Fallon and shown below) under the watchful eye of Shop Steward, Rochelle Wisoff-Fields. All of the stories can be found here. Please take some time out of your busy blogging or surfing day and check out the submissions. You will be glad you did.

My story is not a poem. The shape of the text and the choice of names and words has an underlying theme that I hope will not be viewed in a negative light. The extra challenge I set for myself gives me an extra charge and is offered with positive intent for your reading pleasure.

(To those gracious souls who commented on last weeks story please accept my heartfelt thanks. Though I was not able to respond in a timely manner I want you all to know I read and appreciated every kind word. Thank you and Aloha, D.)

Anne owed

her sister Kath a debt of love

that she was determined to

pay no matter what the cost.

Years of debilitating dialysis had

drained Kath to the limit of her

strength. She knew everyone

had a price to pay for the gift

of life and that her energy was

almost completely drained. Kath

was ready. All Anne knew was

that Kath was family and once

the tests showed their tissue

matched there was no question

what would happen. Donating

a kidney to her sister would re-

charge both their lives and fore-

stall for many years the payment

Kath owed.

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